What a year. I cried, I laughed, I did things the grade 8 Crystal would never have done. I’m just thinking back on it and I honestly can’t believe that my life is actually somewhat interesting. Life happens and definitely molds you into quite a character. I have lots of stories to tell my future kids for sure. My path will always be a little blurry but it’s all good.
I’m just feeling so incredibly grateful. I’ve always been very appreciative for my friends, but nothing compares to how I feel about them right now. For a while, I have been so afraid of saying I love something. I don’t know, there was just something about saying you love something and then having it taken away from you. Do you know what I mean? I didn’t want to love something when I didn’t believe in forever. I still don’t believe in forever, but I have come to realize one day, just kinda out of the blue, that love isn’t something you should be afraid of. I love my friends to their tiniest bones. I love them. I love how they make me laugh, and I love how sometimes I don’t understand why they do things that they do, but I love them so much because I know that they’re only being who they are. It’s cheesy, but I do. I love them.
I have friends who stay up late with me even though we’re a million miles apart, just to pray with me. I have friends who encourage me, and support me in everything I do and everything I want to do. I have friends that message me to tell me that I have been a blessing to their lives. I have friends who I can talk to for hours. And I have friends that make me laugh by saying the dumbest things. I love them. Who could ask for better friends?
And my sisters. Shit, I just love them. I love my mom and she comes in my room sometimes and goes like, “Sweetie, would you like some dumplings?” I love my dad and how we laugh at his stupid jokes for a good five minutes in the middle of the night when I’m supposed to write a paper. I love my grandpa and my grandma and how they smile at me.
Guys, do you know what I learned this year? I learned how to love.
I love you.