Last Day of 2012

What a year. I cried, I laughed, I did things the grade 8 Crystal would never have done. I’m just thinking back on it and I honestly can’t believe that my life is actually somewhat interesting. Life happens and definitely molds you into quite a character. I have lots of stories to tell my future kids for sure. My path will always be a little blurry but it’s all good.

I’m just feeling so incredibly grateful. I’ve always been very appreciative for my friends, but nothing compares to how I feel about them right now. For a while, I have been so afraid of saying I love something. I don’t know, there was just something about saying you love something and then having it taken away from you. Do you know what I mean? I didn’t want to love something when I didn’t believe in forever. I still don’t believe in forever, but I have come to realize one day, just kinda out of the blue, that love isn’t something you should be afraid of. I love my friends to their tiniest bones. I love them. I love how they make me laugh, and I love how sometimes I don’t understand why they do things that they do, but I love them so much because I know that they’re only being who they are. It’s cheesy, but I do. I love them.

I have friends who stay up late with me even though we’re a million miles apart, just to pray with me. I have friends who encourage me, and support me in everything I do and everything I want to do. I have friends that message me to tell me that I have been a blessing to their lives. I have friends who I can talk to for hours. And I have friends that make me laugh by saying the dumbest things. I love them. Who could ask for better friends? 

And my sisters. Shit, I just love them. I love my mom and she comes in my room sometimes and goes like, “Sweetie, would you like some dumplings?” I love my dad and how we laugh at his stupid jokes for a good five minutes in the middle of the night when I’m supposed to write a paper. I love my grandpa and my grandma and how they smile at me. 

Guys, do you know what I learned this year? I learned how to love. 

I love you. 

posted 4 months ago with 1 note

you make me laugh

I honestly had the shittiest year, so I can’t stop saying and expressing my thanks because I am! I am so incredibly thankful for my friends. It really did feel like a storm and I finally found the shore. And I know that even though it’s not going to be like this forever, that’s why I’m just going for it. I know where I’m standing, and I know that yeah, the storm is going to sweep me away again. My best friend has always told me that “good things happen to those who wait.” I just couldn’t help but think that nothing is ever going to happen if you’re so patient and wait for things to happen. But now I’m thinking, things will never “not happen”, do you know what I mean?

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posted 5 months ago with 0 notes

Pen-pals

I feel so inspired right now. I really want to talk to somebody halfway across the world, and send them letters and packages of goodies. It’d be so much fun! A comparison between two cultures. How exciting! Msg me if you want to be my pen-pal. (‘;

posted 1 year ago with 1 note

Friends by Default

You know.. those friends that you don’t really know, don’t really talk to and have had close to no classes with them ever, but are your friends because your friends that do talk to you frequently are somewhat close friends with them. Thus, friends by default. It never fails to surprise me when one of them says hi to me. I feel flattered because they know my name. It’s kinda awesome. 

posted 1 year ago with 1 note